Mas gusto kong magkaibigan lang tayo, kasi alam kong dun tayo tatagal.

Masaya akong pinigilan ko ang sarili ko na sabihin yung “akala kong nararamdaman ko”. Now I can finally say that I couldn’t be happier na we are good friends, and alam kong dito talaga walang pwedeng maging palya. Narealize ko rin na di talaga ikaw ang tipo ng taong gusto ko. Oo, masaya ako pag kasama kita, pero hanggang dun lang yata talaga?

Sa kabila ng lahat ng nangyari, nagpapasalamat ako ng sobra sobra dahil dito ito humantong.

Comfort zones.

Minsan talaga kailangan nating mahiwalay sa sarili nating comfort zones para malaman natin kung hanggang saan ang kaya natin. Tulad na lang ngayong college na, maraming bagay ang kailangan kong isakripisyo para mag-aral at mabuhay mag-isa sa Manila. Tulad na lang ng pamilya, kaibigan, bahay, masasarap na lutong ulam at marami pang iba na nagpapagaan at nagpapadali ng buhay ko. Aaminin kong sobrang hirap nung kinailangan kong mahiwalay sa mga ‘yon. But at the same time, it was their absence that made me stronger. 

Nalaman kong kaya ko naman pala. At kung akala mong hindi mo kaya, I’m sure makakaya mo rin at masasanay ka rin, in time. May mga pagkakataon na akala ko hindi ko na kaya; na akala ko susuko na ‘ko, pero sa mga pagkakataon din na ‘yon ko nasubukang i-push yung sarili ko. Dahil sa pagkakalayo ko sa mga comfort zones ko, mas marami akong natutunan at masasabi kong maraming naitulong yun sakin. Lalo na sa pakikipagkaibigan o pakikipagkilala, pagiging inependent, pagdedesisyon, at maging narin sa pagma-manage ng pera. 

Basta lagi lang nating tandaan na sa buhay, walang kahit na anong may halaga ang madaling makuha. Kung baga, lahat ng bagay kailangan nating paghirapan para mas magkaroon yun ng kahulugan. There are things far better than what makes us feel comfortable, and those things are what makes us better.

5-20-12 

@ Lourdes, Tagaytay with Mom and Sister

How I spent Thursday.

Summer class was finally over! This day was such a treat for all of us. Last Thursday was Rena’s 18th birthday and she is a very dear friend of mine. This was the craziest day I ever had with my blockmates! I missed them so much and I am so glad we had the chance to get together again.

The venue was at Imus, almost a 2-hour ride from Manila. Because of that, we had to stay at my other blockmate’s house there. Alyssa and her Tita was very accommodating and kind. They even bought us food and made breakfast for us! We’re very sorry for the mess and all the noise, btw! 

The party was supposed to start by 5 so we we’re ready by 4. The driver arrived by 6, and that gave us a lot of time to have a “mini photoshoot”, thanks to our “official photographer”, Ian. We got there by 6:30 and we thought we’re late but luckily it didn’t start yet. 

We’re all dolled up and we all look fancy (compared to the usual school uniform and bun that we have to wear everyday). 

Hi! I am with an Etude House endorser! 

With the Araneta brothers! Although you had trouble going to the place because you don’t know it and you don’t speak Tagalog, I am so proud of you guys, you made it safe and alive! :)

With the debutant, Rena. Too bad, we’re not able to take a picture with everyone in it because we won’t fit. She is just gorgeous, isn’t she? A beautiful person, inside and out! Happy birthday again, Rena! 

Last photo of the night, I think?

We went back to Alyssa’s house by 11 and we literally didn’t get any sleep. We had to go back to UST by 7AM because of the Community Health Nursing orientation. We left Imus by 5:30 so we we’re just a bunch of zombies on the bus. HAHA! The bus we took had no more seats so we had to stand ‘til Baclaran. EPIC. Good thing it wasn’t my scheduled orientation yet so I went back to the dorm and went straight to bed. The result? I slept for 16 FREAKIN’ HOURS! Yeah, I woke up by 11PM. I couldn’t believe it myself, but maybe that was just how exhausted I am.  

I couldn’t explain how genuinely happy I was that day! Thank you for making me happy, and I look forward to having more moments like this with you guys, and hopefully with our other blockmates. Sa debut ko naman! 

I don’t know how guys do it…

But how can you show someone that she is important but act like you don’t know them the next day. Just when she thought that you two shared something special, you show her that you couldn’t care less about what she feels. 

I don’t know about other guys, but so far, that’s how they are.

Creepy (?) Story.

So kaninang umaga, kinailangan kong magising ng maaga dahil kailangan ko pang gawin yung lesson plan ko for Health Education. So ayun, sabi ko sa sarili ko gigising ako ng 6AM para maligo at mag-ayos para magawa ko na yun by 7AM dahil may pasok ako ng 8AM. 

5:30 nagising ako ng kusa (RF: Hindi ako nag-a-alarm. Kusang gising lang. LIKE A BOSS). Sabi ko matutulog pa ako ng konti kasi nga 6 ko balak bumangon. Unfortunately, nakatulog ako ulit ng malalim, alam ko kasi nanaginip pa ako ulit. Alam mo yung panaginip na akala mo bumangon ka na, pero ang totoo hindi naman pala? Parang ganun…

So here’s the creepy part… 6:15, bigla kong naramdaman na may kumalabit sa kamay ko. As in sobrang lakas nung kalbit, and nagising ako dun. As in, alam kong naramdaman ko yun at alam kong hindi yun galing lang sa panaginip ko. Napatayo akong bigla and na-realize ko nga na 6:15 na pala. 

Kung wala yung “kumalbit” sakin, malamang male-late ako ng gising at hindi ko magagawa yung lesson plan. Kaya kung sino ka man, salamat sayo. Although ang creepy lang talaga ng pakiramdam, kasi nga ako lang mag-isa dito ngayon sa dorm. And I am not one to believe this creepy kind of stuff. 

I would like to believe that is was my Dad trying to wake me up. 

Mahirap magkagusto sa sikat.

• Marami ka nang kaagaw.
• Kahit gusto mo syang puriin, magdadalawang isip ka dahil hindi na yun bago sa kanya.
• Lahat ng gusto mong sabihin sa kanya nasabi na ng iba.
• AT SYEMPRE, HINDI KA NYA KILALA.

Ugh, fangirl problems. 

Yung feeling na ang hilig mong makinig sa mga love songs pero hindi ka naman maka-relate.

Yung tipong lahat na lang ng kantang marinig mo, “uy ang ganda” kaso wala ka namang maisip na taong mapaglalaanan mo nung kantang yun. Ang masaklap pa nito, kahit yung mga senti at pang-broken hearted na kanta di ka pa rin makarelate.

It’s either marami kang crush na walang isang taong lagi mong naiisip or sadyang tigang ka lang. 

Wedding Dress

Can I just say how the guy in this song is wrong in so many ways? Well, as I was listening to the lyrics of this song, I tried to put myself in the girl’s shoes. And I thought that if I were her, I would’ve done the same thing and married off another guy.

Well first of all, the guy in this song brought all of this sufferings to himself. I mean, you JUST WAITED for the girl. That is stupid, to be honest. If you really love that girl, you should’ve told her, and not let things go to a point that she would go and marry someone else. You went down without a fight. Not even a single effort. I understood that in the video, you were trying to propose to her, and then the other guy kept on interrupting you, but still, at the very least, you could have told her what you feel and show her what she’s missing. You made it seem like the girl isn’t even worth fighting for.

The girl didn’t know about your feelings, so how the hell do you expect her to “leave that guy and go to you”? Yeah, maybe you were there for her every single time, but you never said anything.  That’s why she only saw you as a best guy friend. That’s your fault, right? She may have rejected you, but at least you tried.

Personally, I would like to have a guy who is brave enough to tell me how he feels, than to have someone who is just secretly there. You couldn’t justify that you love the girl more than the other guy, because you would never know that. Maybe he loves the girl just as much as you do, it’s just that he had the balls to make a move and make things happen.

I remember the movie 500 Days of Summer where towards the end of the movie, Summer, the female protagonist married another guy instead of Tom, the male lead. It is because Summer met another guy, and he actually proposed to her. Tom of course, crumbled down and couldn’t understand what happened. But i think that the answer is pretty obvious. I think that it just goes to show that no matter how many romantic moments you shared and no matter how much you show you care about someone, there will always be uncertainties if you will not be brave enough to say what you actually feel. It is true that action speaks louder than words, but actions without words are blurry and confusing.

You can’t just always let destiny to determine your life. If you want things to work your way, you should get up, do something and make it happen! Never think “if it’s meant to be, it will be”, always think “we are meant to be, because we made it to be”. GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WORK FOR IT. 

So yeah, that was it. Don’t get me wrong though, I like the song per se, and I love Taeyang and BIGBANG to bits! It’s just that the meaning of this song bothers me. I hope this post will help those guys and even girls who are just thinking twice of saying what they feel about someone they care for. I hope.

Blessed.

God gives us the greatest things in the most unexpected moments. He is so great that we, most of the time, get more than what we ask for. At dahil dyan, smile lang ng smile! 

PS. Nabi, mag-aral ka na. Prelims nyo ng Health Assessment bukas. Baka akala mo madali lang yun.

My ideal guy? What turns me on?

Someone who is passionate about God. Someone who is not ashamed to worship him, no matter what. That beats all the handsome, hot and gorgeous guys out there.