Eto na yata ang sign. Kailangan ko na yata talagang manahimik at tantanan na siya. Pero kilala ko ang sarili ko at alam kong walang nang ulong mas matigas pa sa akin. Sasabihin ko ngayon na ayoko na at titigil na ako pero wala pang limang minuto o kaya makita lang kita hindi ko nanaman mapipigilan ang sarili ko.
Bakit ba kasi gustong gusto kong pinagsisiksikan sarili ko sa mga lugar na di naman dapat? Bakit ba kasi ganyan ka? Pano ba kita titiisin? Masisisi mo ba ako na hindi ko to kayang pigilan? Masisisi mo ba ako?
Heto nanaman. Maghihintay nanaman ako.
These bruises that you gave me go beyond than what can be seen on the surface. These bruises are a physical reminder that you were once here. Blow by blow you left your mark on me. The pain, the pleasure, the sting; it all reminds me of you.
You bruised my heart, and unlike those that are seen on my skin, the ones that you left in my heart will be here forever. I know it was stupid of me to think that maybe something will blossom out of this foolishness. There was something sweet, something irresistible, something so right in this series of bad decisions and mistakes that we made.
And I wanna keep on having these bruises. If that is the consequence of having you even for just a moment. Keep them coming. I don’t know if in the long run I will regret letting you in but I know that I would certainly regret if I let this pass me by.
Feelings, people and even time will come and go. I just wanna live in this moment. For I know that these feelings, you, and this time of my life will never come back again. I know that I will never be able to find something like this ever in my life.
Loving you is the sweetest sin.
It’s true what they say, you play with fire and you’ll get burned. But why am I the only one burning?